Yeah So....

Check this bullshit out. G is supposed to be flying here on Friday. Why are we not talking, and haven't really talked since Monday???? Just three words...WHAT-THE-FUCK????!!? Yeah we kinda got into it on Monday and then got off the phone...ain't been cool since. I'm like whatever, and you know what? Call me a hard-head but I REFUSE to call him. Nope, not going there buddy. You got me fucked up. He is the one trippin, not me and I'm not falling victim to the game by calling his ass. So then tonight, my girl D calls me. While we were in Phoenix she started talking to G's best friend J and they have totally hit of off. Matter of fact, J is coming here in November for D. Anyhow, so a lot of the information I get from D is via J. So D calls me tonight to tell me G hasn't called because he is sick and has the flu. Now I got four words...WHAT-THE-FUCK-EVER. She's trying to sweat me into calling him and you got me FUCKED THE HELL UP. So he's too sick to call me but not J. Yeah kiss my entire black ass on that one playa. So she proceeds to tell me I need to be the bigger person and just call and see how's he's doing. Yeah okay. Whatever nigga. Again ya got me bent.

Earlier tonight I was sitting here trying my hardest to keep from breaking down in tears over this situtation and why is it 48 hours before the man I have been in love with for YEARS is coming here and we aren't even talking? You wanna talk about fucked up!!!! I just have one question? Why do I love this man so much? I am sitting here right now, drunk as hell upset because we aren't talking. God love Vodka and Red Bull!!!

It's been a minute...

Since I posted....but I didn't realize it had been THAT long! Well as an update to my last post, we had it OUT on August 26th....a major blow out, but we worked through it.

The following weekend was Labor Day weekend and all I can say is that I had a BLAST. Me and my closest girlfriend D went to Phoenix for Nic's Bridal Shower/Bachelorette party. What a BLAST that entire weekend was. We flew out on Thursday and came back on Monday. I had so much fun that on the plane ride on the way back, I was in tears over the thought of having to come back to Oregon. I hate this place and being there just confirmed that I gotta get the fuck outta here. I hate it. Now, I've had a few people say that it's because I was on vacation and didn't have the kids so I could be fancy free, but that's not it. I HATE Oregon and have for YEARS. It was the environment I loved and the people and the warm weather. It reminds me so much of California but I can't afford to live there nor do I have the desire especially after E moved there. What a mother fucker to move there, his stupid ass ain't even FROM there, but he moves to the yay where I am from....Idiot.

The other major decision I have come to is I have decided to end my friendship with K. When I was in Phoenix I talked to D and Nic about it and I just can't do it. The shit isn't healthy and the bottom line is that she is not my friend. A friend wouldn't come at me the way she came at me on numerous issues. When the shit was going down with E, she didn't even so much as call me to see how I was doing. All my other friends and co-workers did but not her. Then let us not forget the infamous incident that happened at my graduation dinner at the Melting Pot. So after I snapped off on her about that, she e-mailed me saying we need to talk about it. So we go out for drinks and NOTHING about that was discussed. Then the day before I leave for Phoenix she sends me a text message saying she wants to be reimbursed for her ticket, which I totally understand and for me to have a good trip. Whatever. I'm cool.

Things between G and I are good. We have grown A LOT in the last few months. He will be here on Friday for two weeks and I am freaking the FUCK out. I just want him to have a good time and enjoy himself and to enjoy me. LOL. The first night I booked a room at the Hilton and my niece is babysitting so we can have some alone time. I mean HELLO I haven't seen him in five years and did you see his picture in the other post?!? I need to have that ALONE!!!