Trying something different....

So I have been thinking a lot about myself and what an emotional mo-fo I am..and I kinda don't like it. I think I need to be more carefree....so fuck it. I am not going to sweat emotional ass bullshit for a while anymore. I am so tired of being upset and crying and all that bullshit all the time. Fuck it. So whatever happens is just what happens. I have spent so much time focusing on the bullshit.....now I just want to enjoy my life, and smile more and cry less!! So we will see how it goes!!!

Like I have been sitting around most of the week waiting on G's phone calls. Fuck that. That nigga knows my cell phone number, hell!!! On top of that, I have been focusing on the wrong shit? Does G really love me? What can I do to make him happy? Question after Question I keep running in my head, and if I was a dude messing with me, shit, I would drive ME crazy!!! So I am not gonna focus on any of that bullshit..whatever happens is just what happens. I want to ENJOY my damn life, not worry the shit away! LOL!!!