I'm Good....

Off relationships, that is. They are nothing but fuckin drama and BS. This was funny: today I was at the beach where I have been since Wednesday at a work conference. As I was walking to my car to drive home, I was thinking how much work relationships are. You work to get in one and work to stay in one; and do I have the strength or where-with-all to maintain one. I thought to myself "I don't think I do" and after tonight I am positive that I don't.

Honestly, I'm typing because I am angry, but Fuck G. Seriously. He comes off like he is all sincere and shit, but really he's just another dude with some good-ass conversation and game. I mean come on, I am not that fuckin dope and he comes off like he's SOOOO in love with me and all this BS but that's all it is. I don't believe it for one damn minute. Never have. It's all talk. I don't trust him nor what he tells me. So what I said something about this "close friend" shit. Old girl told me everything last year so I am already knowing what's he's all about and it's a gang of women and how he can get up in them. I'm sure he ran the same game on her, hell SHE told me he was moving to NM with her and her kids, and it sounds like when he sucked her dry that just went sour. He's got me completely fucked up if he honestly thinks I believe he is just "waiting on me." Okay whatever. Get that shit you asked me for last week from your "good friend" you are going to see tomorrow mmm-kay? Yeah okay, it's a guy....RIGHT. Like you are really about to say, "hey baby, I'm about to to stay with this female tomorrow night and go fuck her brains out, but am sooo in love with YOU baby"!!!! Yeah....let her help yo ass out. And you know what? I do think you're just like E. You just want to suck me dry like he did and then bounce....JUST LIKE HE DID. It's too long to get into, but I'm just cool off him, I'm cool off men and frankly I am cool off everything right about now. Seriously. Because the bottm line to this entire situation is that I absolutely refuse to let any man get close enough to me to hurt me again. EVER!!!!! Fuck that. I won't do it. I have been hurt sooo many times by men and their bullshit lies and E was the absolute worst. It's fucked up to love someone so much and they fuck you over like there is no tomorrow and then just walk the fuck off and basically throw your ass in the hamper like a wet towel after a shower with not a care in the world for how they fucked you up completely.

Speaking of which...all I wanna do is get fucked up right now and I am so irritated that I have to get up in the morning for my LAST FUCKIN CLASS-----HELL YEAH BABY!!!!! So fuck it....I'll be responsible and go tomorrow and get fucked up tomorrow night.....Awww yeah!!!!