It's only a little past noon....

And my ass is already tipsy. Seriously this divorce thing has turned me into a full-fledged alcoholic.....LOL I have developed a LOVE for Riesling wine and I make sure I have a bottle in my refrigerator every day so my homegirl can greet me whenever I need her to...I love her man!!!!

Soooooo had a very deep conversation with "other guy" last night. As my previous post said I didn't think I'd hear from him for a minute, but he did end up calling me, much to my surprise. Soooo 2 hours later we were talking and I ask the question....have you played this situation out in your mind? His response was yes he had and he totally sees us married, happy blah blah blah...but that his only concern was me because he knows I have been married and divorced before E and what are my views on marriage. I couldn't front. I told him I'm gun shy. HELLOOOOO I just got used up like a mother-fuckin tampon people! Hell yeah I am scared of getting married again. This pain is something I NEVER want to feel again. I would love to fall in love and get married and be with that person for the rest of my life, but if there is the slighest hint that I will have to experience the pain I am feeling now again....I'm cool. I'll stay with my homegirl Riesling for a little while longer, ya heard?


On a secondary note, there is "another guy"....M. He's 38 and lives in CA. The "other guy is 35. Well M and I used to talk ALOT back in the day but life just led us different ways. A few months ago, he "revealed" he still " has a thing for me"....so we've been just e-mailing back and forth. Well. last night, I got an offline message on Yahoo from him:

(7/2/2006 3:47:22 AM): you are fine ...you are fine... you are fine, and I reallyyyyy want you nowwwww!!!!

Hmmmm I think that came from the fact that I created a 360 blog and posted some pics and he must have seen them. The absolutey ironic part to this whole sitatution is that M and G have the EXACT SAME birthday!!!!! WTF??? Isn't that crazy?


I am officially caught the-fuck-up. To add to my dramatic situation, I am going to Phoenix over Labor Day weekend for my friend's bachelorette party, and I've been on BP and Myspace straight getting my meet ONNNN, so I can have some peeps to "kick it with" when I get there. Now I have these 2 to add to my mix. Allright...I need to go get some more Riesling....my bottle is empty....LOL.