Peace Out!

So E is out of town for the weekend and I'm fuckin ass irritated, for many reasons. Let me preface this by saying our marriage is NOT picture perfect. When I was 6 months pregnant with our son (Before we were married) I found out that he cheated with some white chick. Honestly, I think he prefers white women, so God only knows why he married my black ass. Wanna see pictures of the girl? There's a link below. The way the shit went down was that he was away on a trip up to Seattle to go visit some friends and family up there, but took a little "side trip" up to Canada to go fuck this girl and spend a few days with her. Now supposedly after he fucked up, he realized how much he loved me and we went to counseling and all that bullshit before we got married and he swore he would never do it again, blah blah blah. Well, it's been almost 3 years, and deep down I am not over the shit. I still don't 100% trust him, and don't know if I ever will. Now obviously since his indiscretion happened during a trip I honestly had some serious issues with him going on another trip, so since he's planned it, I have made little fucked up comments about how I know he's got another "side trip planned" So all day yesterday he was TRIPPIN on me and so last night I told him, "well that's probably because it will make it easier to go fuck someone else like I'm sure you have planned if you are arguing with me" Hmmmm that didn't go over so well with him. So anyway, this morning as I'm driving him to the airport, all this shit is going through my mind, but I"m like Fuck that, I am not saying anything. So anyway he left and then called when he got to LA, but at the babysitter's dropping off D. So I called back like 5 minutes later and he has got his phone off. So I leave a fucked up message on his voice mail and said some shit like "you must be too busy all up in some bitch to answer your phone." So when he called back he was all mad and claims his reception is all fucked up down there and it's going in and out. Then he made some comment about am I gonna fuck up his whole trip with my fucked up attitude. So I said "Nope, you won't hear from me again for the rest of your trip" and hung the fuck up.

That was 10:00 this morning. I have not heard from him since, and when I went to check who he's been calling from his cell phone online, ummm he's been calling somebody up in Northern California who's number I don't recognize, and that same person has been calling back. The last call from his Uncle's home phone number to his phone. So if he is going to visit his uncle and staying with his uncle, why would his uncle need to call his phone? Yeah, and he gets so angry when I say I don't trust him. This is pretty much the same behavior as when he went to fuck ole' girl....didn't hear from his ass all night. But you know as much as it fucks me up, I'm not gonna let that shit get to me. If it turns out he has fucked some other white bitch..well he better hope the bitch has an extra bed cuz he won't be livin up in this bitch no more that's for damn sure, and as soon as all his shit is out of the house, my next stop will be at a divorce attorney's office!!!

Here ya go....http://ca.pg.photos.yahoo.com/ph/thestylist68/my_photos